Unspoken

Stuck between my heart and the world, I decided to keep it mum
Locked it in a box and threw away the key
Deep into the sea, it sunk
It never did surface but I believed everything else would suffice
I made myself believe that it would..
Did it?
It was never spoken of
Unlike the river, it never flowed
Unlike the lava, it froze
Unlike time, it stopped
Yet it survived the sandstorms, the heat, the cold
And it never died
But like a cancer, it slowly killed me
Slowly took over my life
The life I prayed never to ever live again in the lives to come
As the world wanted it unspoken
Though the universe wanted the heart to live, scream and shout
Keep beating and never freeze
But it remained unspoken

-PRK-

And If You Are

Funny how everything comes out easily from you
Like you have nothing to worry about
Nothing to hide
Somehow I find it too good to be true
Or perhaps you're through with things that I'm still going through
You've passed that stage
And I'm still on it
Still closer to my beginning than you are to yours
Still healing
Still thinking
Still wondering
If you are for real
If you really exist
Or just pretending to be the kind of person that I think you are
The stronger one
Who will never fail me
And if you are
If...

-PRK-

A Company, Maybe

I can hear the breeze brushing through the trees
Birds chirping and singing in melodies
Teenage girls joking and laughing with their grannies
Over a cup of coffee and chocolate chip cookies
And kids running around chasing each other
Playing hide and seek, I can hear their feet pitter-patter
And their moms gossiping with each other
Later talking about their family and the sounds of nature
While their dads catch up at the football game
Talking about their sons, the car engines and getting together for a jam
They look happy, no one seem to be in agony
Even sad faces then cracked a joke about the economy
It was a good day for an evening walk, definitely
But I just sat at the bench, appreciating life, wishing that birds could talk to me
So I can tell them I'm happy to be here
To watch the sunset with my bottle of beer
To tell my loved ones I love them dearly
And wishing they were all here with me
Or a company, maybe

-PRK-

Disarray

Don't give me hope
If that's all you can give me
Because I can't bear the pain anymore
I can't get hurt like this anymore
Tears on my sleepless nights
And when I do fall asleep, you appear in my dreams
And I just woke up from a weird one
One I can't explain
But something is wrong
It was incomplete
The dream just ended
And it woke me up from my sleep

-PRK-

Antistupid

And so I walk down the streets
Listening to the unhealthy cultural beats
Where the human race failed to recognise the difference between being racial and racist
Between desperation and dishonesty
And watching them feed each other with so much hatred and disgust
And I just walk pass them, sniggering at their immaturity and stupidity
Not saying my his or my hellos
Ignoring their phony act of kindness and shiny halo
For I am not antisocial.. I'm just antistupid

-PRK-

She Found Peace

They told her,

"Breathe, and get your mind off it.
Sleep under the star, don’t let your mind lose it.
Accept imperfection, practice mindfulness.
Don’t sweat the small stuff, and live with no regrets."

And so she remained cool, remained calm and let them drool
Acted fooled when they claimed she’s under-ruled
Such depression made her lend a barf
Turned her head around, whispered,

"That's enough."

And so she took a bath by the candlelight
She meditated by the neon light
She let her feet take her towards the pink strobe light
Smiled when she saw those idiots slipped by the mountainside

And she thought,

"Oh, they were right. Be present in the moment, leave the past aside."

And so she found the good in all situations and laid on the grass
Embraced her freedom and held her head up with class

-PRK-

Beast At Ease

My soul is at ease
I'm just passing through
Keeping a strong mind, I'm a beast
Still shining too
Charging forth like an eagle
Just flying above you
Ambitious?
As always, unstoppable too
Failed in the past
I'm just moving forward
I see silver linings, some things has no word
Great endeavours, won't stop, won't trip, won't rest
No fraudulent scars, I'm staying best-dressed

PRK

No Room

Often you think of hurting yourself
To know how you're really hurting inside
You want to see yourself bleed
You want to see bruises and cuts
But these bruises and cuts can't be compared to the wound in your heart
Like hoarded wealth, there's just no room anymore for another scar

PRK

Broken, Again; Until Then

I woke up zombified
A living dead living in lies
I didn't know how I'd ever survive
Truth is, I can't even look into your eyes
The story went on that I'm stronger than ever
Only God knows how I'm trying to keep it together
When it's too quiet, I can hear your voice
I can hear you talking and it's not a choice
It's not that I didn't want to, I just couldn't
I fell too soon and I fell deep into confusion
"What is this?" I asked but I can't get the answer
I supposed it was just what my heart desired
What I longed for as I'm no longer searching for 'forever'
What I needed most is a soul that would love me better
Accept me for me, for what I have in mind, night and day
For my thoughts, my questions and my plans in May
Dear diary, would you show me where I went wrong?
From all my entries, show me what I shouldn't have spelt wrong
What I shouldn't have assumed, shouldn't have consumed
For now I've got nowhere to go, nothing to write, nothing to look forward to
But another day, another soul that would make me forget you
Broken again
Yes, I'm broken again
For this quest has no end
And so..
Until then

-PRK-