Come Second

Once a priority, the next, a reserve
Merely an escape
A fling that's conserved
And my soul was relinquished
To one that don't deserve
The passion so wide
Yet the devotion took a swerve
So I followed the curved line
Led me back to the unknown
My emotions were swirled
As if I was stoned
I felt myself falling, drifting away, alone
Slowly escalating, until I know I was gone
Then I questioned myself
I questioned my faith
Will I last through any weather
Will I survive the interfaith
I've gone through the fifth
Will I make it to the eighth
Or will this forever be my wraith?

-PRK-

Selfish Love

Not that I miss you and wish you were here
I miss the person you once were
The time when you said you've waited
And didn't mind waiting until I say yes

Not that I'm saying I wish you didn't change
Because I have learned that at times I have to be content
And that I need to change

But I know me and I know you
I know I have my lows and so do you
How do we compromise
That time I wish I knew
And there is no secret I was still stuck to you

Until you made the call and left
Until I realised you couldn't wait anymore
Until I learned that love is not selfish
But the one who love and longed to be loved is

But you're a memory that keeps me up some nights
That reminds me of unresolved conflicts that they talked about
A memory that gives me clarity of thought
A memory that is common to a woman

A woman who deserves love and understanding
Not rules and regulations
A woman who deserves romance and warmth
Not terms and conditions
A woman who believes that she deserves to be herself

-PRK-

Bebas

Soalan ku masih yang sama
Sentiasa berkaitan dengan ertinya cinta
Kerna aku sering dihantui dan sering dipermainkan
Oleh igauan usang
Seperti mereka, aku juga ingin bahagia
Seperti mereka, aku juga ingin meneroka dunia
Akan tetapi, aku sudah penat menanti
Semakin lesu, semakin segan dengan fantasi
Aku tarik nafasku
Dan aku yakin ini haluan yang harus kurentas
Yang harus ku tinggalkan agar aku bebas
Bebas kah?
Jawapannya hanya pada diriku
Setelah aku rentasi hutan dan jalan berliku itu

-PRK-

That Arranged Marriage

It's all Greek to me in its infancy
Letting nature take its course; a date with destiny
Damned if I do, damned if I don't
In a den of iniquity; halfway decent and be damned on my own
And my drunkenness diluted in foreign liquors
My scruples thawed alongside such rigours
A command performance so peculiar
Cruising for a bruising in the whole hemisphere
For there is no evil neither mercy
Neither sinners nor such divinity
There is only justness and impropriety
Two-chambered in somewhat a unity
So when the drape falls, I shall be quick to take a bow
Re-create a mannequin sprawl as opposed to a beau
For it's an alliance free of rupture
Should such emotion arise, nevermore will I miscarry the utter

-PRK-

Love Seat

Never meant to make you wend
Never meant to make you misspend
I intended to represent
The actual mistrust I've underwent

As the illusions I've apprehended
Had me reoffended the warmth they recommended
Delusional and consumable, I then pretended
That every piece are unamended

For such passion is inevitable
My confessions are dimensional
Of which each of them will be skeptical
To those who are prophetical

So relinquish that desire
Of which you will soon misfire
For I'm one you will encipher
For the waiting is now kitschier

My First Love

From the window I saw a boy so confused
Curiously I invited him; quite goofed
I knew who he was; indeed reproved
But at that first sight, I was bemused

My heart took a spin; I couldn't steer
My vessels were bailing on my lithosphere
I could almost evolve into a balladeer
Dancing at the ball under glass chandelier

A few minutes passed and he took his steps
Leaving me summing up my innocent debts
I was quite new to romance and missteps
And the hallucinations of our silhouettes

Was it love; I wondered on my sleepless nights
Could he be my chavelier dispersing delights
My shining armour confusing street lights
With his appetizing poetic insights

Patiently I waited for initiations
For hellos and see yous and some invitations
When he walked towards me; I felt palpitations
He turned my calmness into suffocations

I knew I'd go crazy over his voice
Incomparable whispers leaving me no choice
To drool over him with no equipoise
He was incompatible unlike other boys

Indeed we were young; still in our teen
We cared differently like labyrinthine
And so we went on; not always serene
But this much is true, our love was pristine

-PRK-

All That Jazz

That whisper in the ear
When that figure reappear
Eager to steer
And thither a jeer
As it was a struggling chavelier
Never a cavalier
Forever an adhere
A treasure so sincere
Sincerely so gentle
Like a whispering temple
A plot in assemble
A blind drunk battle
Be it in the chapel
Or on the saddle
Astraddle, perhaps bedazzled

-PRK-

Saviour

Once - a song was written with the image of Romeo and Juliet
In a world and such era of bedecked perfection and booty sweat
Appalled - the pencil stopped, realising it spells regret
"Walk away," it said. "Leave the movie set."
Supposed it was just my train of thought and rain of chafe

Messing about with the grammes of my sanity half

And my length of forbearance stays my greatest craft

Before the big vent object to the cockeyed raft

Though when the sun comes up, it ceased momentarily

The crimson weave is staying everlastingly

Uninformed how butterfly is supposed to feel like

And the moving picture is never coming to real life

Was it love or was it just a state of mind?

And will this riant song and dance ever be mine?

-PRK-