You, Among Millions

When you walked away,
My world fell apart
I saw smoke, shattering walls
And I tried to understand the screaming terror
The screaming inside of me that went louder continously
And I looked at the wall
Looked outside my bedroom window
Looked to my left, my right
The ceiling
The fan was spinning fast
But really, I was staring at nothing

I was looking for answers
Longed hard for explanations
But the more I dwell, the deeper I dig
The closer I got to the prickly coldness of fear
And inexplicable terror
Just stabbing into my flesh,
Cramping my stomach

And I prayed, I tried to pray
But I couldn't utter my words
I couldn't gather my strength
I couldn't for one minute, separate myself from the darkness
My heart, my mind, my soul
My body, but all of me was not there
I lost my senses
And I fell asleep

Why you, among millions?

-PRK-

Unspoken

Stuck between my heart and the world, I decided to keep it mum
Locked it in a box and threw away the key
Deep into the sea, it sunk
It never did surface but I believed everything else would suffice
I made myself believe that it would..
Did it?
It was never spoken of
Unlike the river, it never flowed
Unlike the lava, it froze
Unlike time, it stopped
Yet it survived the sandstorms, the heat, the cold
And it never died
But like a cancer, it slowly killed me
Slowly took over my life
The life I prayed never to ever live again in the lives to come
As the world wanted it unspoken
Though the universe wanted the heart to live, scream and shout
Keep beating and never freeze
But it remained unspoken

-PRK-

Broken, Again; Until Then

I woke up zombified
A living dead living in lies
I didn't know how I'd ever survive
Truth is, I can't even look into your eyes
The story went on that I'm stronger than ever
Only God knows how I'm trying to keep it together
When it's too quiet, I can hear your voice
I can hear you talking and it's not a choice
It's not that I didn't want to, I just couldn't
I fell too soon and I fell deep into confusion
"What is this?" I asked but I can't get the answer
I supposed it was just what my heart desired
What I longed for as I'm no longer searching for 'forever'
What I needed most is a soul that would love me better
Accept me for me, for what I have in mind, night and day
For my thoughts, my questions and my plans in May
Dear diary, would you show me where I went wrong?
From all my entries, show me what I shouldn't have spelt wrong
What I shouldn't have assumed, shouldn't have consumed
For now I've got nowhere to go, nothing to write, nothing to look forward to
But another day, another soul that would make me forget you
Broken again
Yes, I'm broken again
For this quest has no end
And so..
Until then

-PRK-

Hollow Coast

Though the bottle is glazed
There's still be such a phase
Memories I couldn't erase
But I shall keep it rephrased
Never will they be replaced
For infidelity wasn't the case
It's just one of those days
The mist finger my face

-PRK-